Everything I’ve ever dreamed about. All those heartfelt journal entries, emotional blogs, and dreams that seemed so far out of reach are here.
It’s like I have the entire world in my hands. There’s nothing that can bring me down. I always told myself that when the right person came along, I would just…. Know. And I do. I am undeniably sure of myself and my decisions.
God only knows how many bumps we’ve had to get to the point we’re at…. And we’ll only go through more bumps and cross, what may seem like impossible, bridges. But I know where I stand.
For once, I am living in my feeling. I’m living with my decision. I have someone worth fighting for. I have someone who deserves all of me. And I will not let this go.
It’s crazy to know that the intentions to be with you were never there in the first place. When we told everyone we were “just friends,” we really meant it. I knew it. I was living my life, and you were getting by with yours…
Then people couldn’t accept the fact that we were friends. Which I find so funny… Because if it wasn’t for everyone trying to tear us apart, we wouldn’t be where we are today.
It was everyone around us trying to separate us that only pushed us closer together. And I thank them for that.
I never would have thought I would be this girl. I was always the one to be hurt and to hurt others because I didn’t want to go through it again. I was insatiable. I was having fun. I didn’t care about another person’s feelings…. And now, all I want to do is provide for you, make you happy, be with you, and never lose you.
I wonder if people who get together feel like this? Cause I know what it’s like to be merely interested and infatuated with someone. I know what it’s like to settle for convenience. I know what it’s like to feel something and tell yourself that you’ll get by. And that you’ll make it work.
But the feelings I have now are none of that. And I absolutely won’t ever let this go.