TYLERJUNKO
I’ve never really been with someone before…
I don’t know what it’s like to be with someone. I don’t know how to function as a couple. It’s so different for me.
I’m so used to being alone. I’m comfortable with being by myself. I’m fine sleeping alone, driving myself places, paying for things on my own, etc. I’m so used to making myself happy and being the only person who’s actually there for me.
Now that I have you, things have changed so much… And they’re still changing. It’s not a bad thing. Having someone stand by my side while I go through the obstacles life throws my way everyday isn’t all that bad. It’s comforting in it’s own way. I just have so much to learn.
I’m not guarded, that’s definitely not it. I let you into my heart and I’m glad you stay there.. It’s just that this is all so new. Having someone who actually cares about my happiness. Having someone I want to be with every second of every day.
It’s like I was going through life on my own… And there’s no complaints about that at all. I was just fine the way I was, but now I have you. Now I have to learn to compromise and get through things knowing that there’s someone on my side who’s just as affected by the decisions I make in life as I am.
I don’t want to let you down. I love you, I really do. Anyone who thinks other wise or doesn’t want us to be… Just doesn’t know. Just as I am, they’re unfamiliar with it.
I’ve always been the single friend that everyone could run to when they had boy troubles of their own. I’ve always been the one who could always be there because I had no other priorities to tend to besides those of the norm. And now that’s all changing.
I’ve never, ever, felt like this about someone. It just shows me that everything I thought I knew before was nothing. All the wrong people I held on to for all the wrong reasons. This is why I don’t doubt love. I was always wondering why I was without it, but I never doubted it. Solely for reasons like ours.
The feelings I have for you are crazy real. Regardless of the rocky road and time we will have to get through, I can’t see myself being anywhere else than here with you.
This is why I don’t doubt love… And neither should anyone else. As cliche as it all sounds.. It happens with the person you least expect it with at a time that is probably the most inconvenient for you; but it’s worth it.
Love is not about the trials and tribulations you’ve been through with someone. It is about the time spent building a relationship, a family, a home. Being obliged to someone is not loving them. It is a duty. Love isn’t a duty, it isn’t a chore, it never should be. Love is something that you wake up every morning and realize that you have it. Love is about being next to someone, not in front of them guiding them through things, not behind them following them through life; but right next to each other over coming every thing that life will throw your way. When you really love someone, and they love you back… You just know. It’s something you feel with every molecule in your body. When you have that.. Never let it go.
